It is with mixed emotions that I end this phase of my journey of 2014. So much is now behind me; so many important things, people, events. There’s definitely a part of me that wants to stay right here because it’s comfortable — sort of wading, hanging out in the past. In a way, that is what I’ve been doing for the past few years. And, I am now aware, it’s where I’ve needed to be. Making peace with yesterday has for me been a necessary step. So now, I am moving forward — completing what I can and leaving the rest. Just leaving it. Not burying it, stuffing or ignoring it. Just leaving it where it sits, like items I’m giving to charity, waiting for them to be picked up and removed. Because I don’t need or want them any longer, I’m giving them away.
The future looms, not in an ominous way, more like a path through a forest or an open highway. It’s there, just waiting for me to take it. There are roads veering off the the right and left, some dead ends and some leading to an entirely different road. Of course I don’t know where they lead, and that’s part of the fun, the excitement. It’s all a choice — a big, wonderful choice! And because I have The One holding my hand throughout each step, encouraging me to take the next step, I trust that I’ll be taken care of, I’ll be safe.
There’s so much to learn; so much more to be revealed. I’m excited! And I’m not alone. There are many like me out here, walking in this world. Walking with hope and trust. Taking that next step with less fear, and lots more faith.
“You’re not the only one with mixed emotions. You’re not the only ship adrift on this ocean.” Mixed Emotions, Rolling Stones http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLx-xdBMJTA