Fear, Faith & the “One Day at a Time Plan”
Greetings from sunny New England, USA.
Today my son started middle school. Wow. The passage of time, as many have said before me, is just remarkable. Wasn’t it just recently he started kindergarten? And tomorrow, another child starts his senior year in high school. It’s silly, I know, but I’m already thinking about what it will be like when he goes to college or otherwise moves on.
This my friends, is called projection. Instead of living in today and appreciating it for what it offers, I live in the past (wondering what happened to the time or what I could have done differently) or the future (what will become of me when my children move on). With one foot in the past and the other in the future, what happens with today? This is why the present is called a gift.
So today, I am consciously making a decision to look at my life, and where I am today. I am grateful for lots of things: No longer must I awake each morning to go to a J-O-B that I despise. Of course, I do what has to be done to pay those bills, which often involves doing what I’d rather not do. My children and I are healthy, we have a roof over our heads and enough food to eat. In case this sounds corny, remember that there are many on this earth, even here in our own country, who do not have these basics.
Which leads me to where I am today. I now choose to craft my life around what I have just recently admitted I really want: to write and to share my experience and hope with others. This desire has always been in my heart, it has just taken me a few decades to admit it. And that’s okay. I choose to have faith and believe that I am supported by powers much greater than myself.
Where will this new path lead? Don’t know. There are no guarantees. I will, however, put one foot in front of the other with trust and move forward. Today, I will acknowledge my fear and move through it. Just taking it one day at a time and living to the best of my ability in this moment is the best way to appreciate this gift of life.